I hate half Asians.

I hate half Asians.
Now before you jump to conclusions,
Gasping in horror, a BLANKET RACIST
One who wants racial purity,
Look at that tiny girl on the podium
An ASIAN NAZI

Let me justify and explain
This conundrum.

Half Asians carry in their physical features
The burdens that EVERY “Asian American” carries,
Embodied in their HALF-slanted eyes
(we full breeds use eyelash glue to give ours the double lids)
Is the acknowledgment
That they belong to every culture,
And no culture, a combination that results
In the decapitation of their identity

Lunch boxes packed with mac and cheese
Eaten with chopsticks
Brown colored hair

“where you from china doll
Ni hao ma
Oh right
You’re not Chinese
YOU’RE A HALFIE”
Disconnected from identities
Wanting to sceam
“I’M NOT FAKE
I’M JUST THE PHYSICAL VERSION
OF THE ASIAN AMERICAN”
… the best of both worlds
Or maybe just one that doesn’t have roots

Trying to find meaning
Shunned by true “Asians”
Not white or black or brown or yellow
With no one to run to
No cultural connections
Maybe speak flawless English
but strangers in new yawk speakin’ slowly to them
maybe speak perfect mandarin
but perpetual foreigner to the Chinese
the yellow mulatto
shamed out of their heritage

you are not one or both,
but neither …
and that is why I hate being half-Asian,
half “American.”